I thought I'd make an update journal, even though like no one reads them
I like barely ever use this website any mores. I actually have some more drawings that I already scanned to post. I just haven't gotten around to it.
warning: I'm about to burn through a bunch of topics
I've been pretty sad lately. I didn't get the part I wanted in my school play, which is a stupid thing to be sad about, but I'm emotionally unstable and I over-think things. Any way, theatre arts used to be my favorite part of the day. But my teacher has been different lately. Probably stressed. And now, it just makes me really sad. Whenever I watch a scene with the part I wanted, or the girl playing the part, my spirits drop. It's so stupid. I'm way too dramatic.
I've barely gotten any time to study my lines. I get so much homework everyday and I've been SUPER stressed. I'm on Thanksgiving break right now, but I've been trying to spend time relaxing, so I've only practiced once. I guess that's my fault.
I haven't done anything fun, either. Just wasted a bunch of time. Which really makes me sad because I know one day I'm gonna wish I was doing something now and right now I'm just hoping I'll do more when I'm older. And even when I get all inspired and shit I can't really do much. For one thing, I'm grounded. Also, the only means of transportation I have access to most the time is walking, which isn't very efficient.
I've been really lonely lately. Really, really lonely. I just want to cuddle and/or kiss someone but I can't. I've felt so sad and empty and I have no idea what brought this on. It's affecting how I sleep!! I don't remember sleeping at all last night. I probably did for like an hour, but I just remember tossing and turning and thinking and groaning and crying. It was horrible and dramatic and it would be pretty embarrassing if someone saw.
I want to live with a friend or friends that I can cuddle with and kiss platonically or otherwise.
sorry for the whining. I've felt so hopeless lately and I don't know why. What the frick.